watched 4 episodes of gossip girl on the plane. couldnt stop thinking too much about stupid things that cropped up so i took it out on eating alot of food. then i think about how i cant complain to shu about how i am thinking about stupid things and i get even more depressed. and then i think about how even the thought of going to melbourne to study with shu is laughable and that just makes me sadder. and now my adium is not connecting. and then i can't curse here cause i know ill get a shelling from some ppl who read my blog.

GREAT. my adium FINALLY connected. oh nice. it just disconnected again. this is a perfect moment for cursing